Liberated

Okay... So... awhile ago... I just saw a picture of what was my plan.... And then, a few moments later, I saw another picture... That one conference I could not go to coz frankly... I just didn't meet the school's standards... So anyway... I'm gonna be frank about this...

When I was a kid, I really wanted to be the best. And I worked hard to be the best. I had the occasional slip-up when I was in grade five and so that slip cost me what I wanted. So then there was high school. I was the best... (is it safe to say that here?? haha...) And then, I had another slip-up... Don't you just love it when you get derailed??? :P...

Then, my hopes became obsolete when I joined the Student Government. Why??? Well, let's just say I uncovered stuff my honor-roll ass wasn't supposed to uncover frankly coz I'd think THEY were the enemy. And I thought so... A few months and blog entries later, I broke down... The dream just melted away... So long was going up that platform and giving that speech I so desperately wanted... It seemed that playing fair to them wasn't even an option (am I that good??? hahaha sorry... just writing with my emotions here people). Then there was that fateful moment. 7:51 pm to be exact. I got in.

I was like... dude... I got into AJSS... O_o YEYEYEYEYYEYEYEYEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was ecstatic!!! Dammit!!! I was one of the top 70 in the philippines... It all didn't matter anymore... :) It was an affirmation in itself... Forget about being praised by my school (whatever my school may be) I was being lauded by the Ateneo!!!! I was soooo ecstatic!!!! Hell yeah... I passed and you guys didn't (I'm reallyyyyy sorry if it sounds soooo mean but I WAS infuriated... I deserve this release :P) okay... calm yourself... sigh... there you go

Anyway.

In AJSS, I learned that it's okay to be stupid. It's okay to enjoy studying (And ADMU was the only time I did enjoy studying). I didn't have to suck up to the teachers... They treated us FAIRLY and saw right through our faces. Don't you just love it when the good ones display their prowess??? [shout out first: ni chang chang zai wo de xin li!!!!!!] So there... I have bragging rights for like... forever =)) Here I go again.. im soooo sorryyyyy.... I learned it I guess from Doc Gus... Hellz yeah! Anyway... there... I love the Justice system in Katipunan... That's why im going there and not in some other university... :P

Now? I guess I kinda feel a little of that sayang thing but I wouldn't change courses if I were to pick. I love who I am now. Okay, so maybe I don't challenge myself (QLC said AJSS isn't challenged in ordinary settings :P So what's there to challenge??? ) but none of this reallyyyy matters. Coz of stepping out of the race I save myself time, effort and most of all *the trouble of having to deal with my conscience... :)

So what am I now? Am I some ex-nerd? (no... coz when you're in AJSS, you will ALWAYS be a nerd =))) Am I a normal person now? Or just some kid blogging? I am an activist... (not in the UP way...ewww... no offense) I am an activist standing up for my Ordo Amoris (HA! Bet you don't know that! Max Scheler will beat YOUR ass! Watch and learn!) I am a leader! (But I think that title is also overrated in my battlefield... I think it's pretty much like a frequent shopper card thing now... as in you earn points and exchange em for something) Scratch that then... I am a TRUE leader! With a heart of silver (not quite gold yet)!

For all I care, I pity you guys... you and your grovelling ways... I bet you've never met Fr. Nebres... =)).... (Okay... so binasa ng kapatid ko at sinabi niya "Ate, you are soooo an Atenean" and I'm like "Fo' Real" hahahahhahaaaa) I do hope for society's sake you go migrate and work in another country... This country can only handle so much politicians...

Anyway... for real... please do find the time to reflect... We don't want to increase evil's army! :)

So anyway... I'm soooo liberated... At least I'm not pressured by anybody... :) I sooo love my parents... :)) RANDOM:|

Anyway... good luck with life! Oh yeah, if you think you can go to the Ateneo with that attitude, think again :)

Oh umm... comment on my multiply! I have the same umm... entry... :D (I would love to hear from the people I'm referring to :D)

Oh yeah... for the people nodding their heads in agreement... FIGHT THE POWER!!!! STICK IT TO THE MAN!!! =)) I'm kidding... sorry... School of Rock hangover... ]

I soooo need to study :)

You know you love me! XOXO! (Oooh... none for you now!)