Calmed Down

Okay. That was kinda harsh. Sorry.

But now prove them wrong.

Re-post!

People come to me. Everyday. With new information. I don't know what to believe anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I see everything. Seriously. I see the efforts being made. But I also see other things happening. That entry was sincere. It was what I felt and I needed to express it. This is after all a free country. I didn't implicate anyone. There was no insinuation made. I also hope people would understand where I'm coming from.

I am also free to be talked to. Not harassed. Not pushed into a corner. TALKED TO.

No inquisitions. Just talk.

I didn't know that the blog would spread like wildfire. I didn't know that someone would be badmouthing me as well. (not in a blog post though, to make things clear)

People should know that that blog wasn't meant to destroy character. If it was, a name/s would be all over it.

Be open-minded and see that all this didn't come from a bad place. It had to root from somewhere.

People post these things because people care. People don't just post these things to destroy someone else.

I don't REALLY wish anyone leprosy... (hahaha... seriously?!) But when something against your principles are brought up, of course you're gonna react. Vehemently. (And people know how I react to things... just look at my previous blog posts for crying out loud)

I REALLY want to make the last 37 days meaningful and okay.

I'm not saying that it'll be okay after this. I'm not asking for retribution or anything. I'm just trying to make people understand why I posted the previous blog. (And why I'm reposting. Ughhh... Dude... Seriously... time's ticking away...)

I'm not making war with anyone.

It was just an expression of thoughts.

You want to talk about it? Sure. Library. Dismissal. We'll talk. LIKE HUMANS (peacefully and civilly)

P.S. And please don't insult me through different forms of media or applications... I have eyes. I can see them too.

A blog post dedicated to retards

Okay.

Dear RETARDS,

I hope you can still read this. You know, given the fact that you have such few brain cells (or none at all... i don't even think you know what brain cells are) Anyway. I'm gonna try and make this sound as simple as I can. For all other people out there, non-retards, you'll get your own blog post so please bear with me :).

Okay... (Phew... speaking Idiot is soooo hard!... Binkee... if you're reading this, I should have made this a long time ago...) Anyway... creatures of the lowest rung of dignity-ville... Even lower than scum beneath the scum... wait... was that comparison too smart for you??? But you know what... what the heck... I'll just use REAL words... I ain't dumbing myself down for you.

You people think that you're gonna get away with all those dumb antics you guys are trying to pull off.... well no. You aren't. One day... You're gonna pay (I don't know if in what form... maybe poverty... or umm... some south american sickness... what the heck... maybe God will have mercy on you and just give you leprosy.). You're gonna pay for making us look stupid. You're gonna pay for taking us for granted. You're gonna pay for your hypocrisy... (yeah! I said hypocrisy... now go get a dictionary and see what it means!) You're gonna pay for all those other people you destroyed, for the times you did stuff you weren't supposed to do... Oh but the best thing is... this ain't just some one time capital punishment sort of thing. (google: capital punishment so you can understand) It's gonna hunt you forever.

I said I ain't mad at you. Well I wasn't. But then you had to make us look like idiots and go on with your havoc-wreaking gut-squirming former ways. Then I got mad. I got mad first at myself for actually believing that what I did or said or you know... all those times I encouraged you and praised your effort (if those were actually true and genuine acts of wanting to save your friggin lives and consciences)... all those were thrown away. I actually thought that you were sincere. But whoop-dee-doo.... It all just went flying back to my face.

Then I said... No. It's not my fault. It's your fault. For not fixing your own goddamn lives. I'm not mad coz you're doing awful things! That's just self-righteous and self-gratifying for my own sake... I'm mad coz people actually tried to help you and you effed them up.

God.

Low lives.

Anyway... So I've been trying to calm down and try and look at your despicable face but... Let's seeeeee... I don't think that's happening anytime soon. But at least I'm trying.

I mean... I'm not really affected in any way. (Oh yeah... you destroyed reputations of not just one person... no... you had to ruin the face of every person in an undisclosed organization of people.. but that's beside the point... or is it?!?!?!) So I'm trying to let go of it.

I don't care what others think of me. I really don't. As long as I know I'm doing the right thing. The right thing may not be fun for now but it'll be rewarding in the end. (mark my words) I may not be "cool" but what the heck... At least I won't die early coz of what I'm doing to my body or to my conscience or to every other possible crap imaginable. *Sigh... If only I had the non-chalant ways of Binkee... (non-chalant... google it... oh wait... do you even know what google is? That's just sooo sad).

Anyway. there. Your life sucks. But you have to deal with it.

That's a bummer.

Everyone talks about it. And I bet you're saying "It's better to be talked about than not to". Oh what a selfish narcissistic remark (oh i'm sorry... that was another big word wasn't it?).

And you call yourself Catholic! Or Christian! Or whatever it is.

And Patrice is a whole lot better than you! (That's a compliment Patrice... I'm not implying anything... Luv yah! hahaha)

Shame on you.

God. I shouldn't have written this post. I wasted time.

Time I use for STUDYING.

I think you should try that sometimes. Get out of the rock you call home and study.

It'll do you some good.

Weren't you studying before? I mean... way way before?

I don't know... maybe you just forgot.

SO ANYWAY!

See ya! Would NEVER wanna be ya!

(And if you post hate comments or a counter post... It just goes to show how immature you are and you really are conceding to the fact that you are retards.... You know... Whoever it is you are that posted hate comments or counter posts...)

(And okay... maybe I am a little shallow right now posting about stupid stuff like this. But you know... sometimes you just gotta stoop down to that level to make people understand.)

(Oh and... I seriously am trying to talk to you... It's just that... You're probably most if not everything against or opposite of what I stand for...)

(One day... we're all gonna forget about this... You know... when you grow up.... I'll be waiting!)

(Oh God. I'm probably gonna post a pity re-post just to release the guilt and the tension)

When grapes turn into raisins

Due to the effing stress i've received this past week, I've been converted from a normal human being into someone who got stuck in an elevator for 5 days, been kicked by 11 elephants while being juggled by a really cute baby seal.

Let's seeeee....

We just had fair... That was 2 days of non-stop work. Was on ticket ripping duty during the night activities and was limping around the campus. (Have I told you I've been injured since God knows when? And my leg was once twice the size of Texas?) So there. I hated the grade school people just coz... Them and all there debauchery and indecency.... (being a kid who got stuck in an exclusive school... connect the dots...)

"To 008... Magic Words!... Love: Alam mo na"

What in tarnation is that?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Freaks.

Plus! The dance party was sooooo.... ughhh... how do I say this.... God... if the Pope went to our school's gym, he would've excommunicated all them boys and girls.... and all them girls and girls... You get the picture...

There.

Then! Monday came. DLSU Star Scholar Orientation. Might I say... it was much more fun than the DL dinner. There were aj people there and we kept saying... Nobody say the bad word! (Ateneo)... I was like: What if they ask how we met?.... Answer: We met at dance class... not satisfied? Answer no. 2: We had this soiree for 5 weeks... us and a bunch of other schools... hahaha... I'm beginning to like DLSU... Seriously.

I mean... it doesn't really matter where you go... If you're not going to motivate and inspire yourself to pursue change or higher purpose, you ain't goin nowhere homie...

Hahaha... change of tone...

So There.

Okay. PHA nationals are coming up. I've forgotten my speech.

I feel so responsible! I've done all the things I needed to do ('cept 1)

So anyway.

Oh yeah... There was drama yesterday (Saturday). Not going to go there anymore. Friggin bad place.

Even Friday. Actually it all began on Friday. Okay. Stopping here.

I don't wanna rot in hell. O_o

Umm. I guess that's it.

OH WAIT!!!! I went to parties nga pala... hahaha

The first one was my dad's... It was his birthday and what better way to spend it than in a concert! A Fall Out Boy concert! HAHAHA... My dad ladies and gentlemen. I don't like em anymore but my dad scored good seats and I just had to go :))

Then I went to RD's party.... Someone's not a minor anymore! Hahaha... You can go to jail na... haha.... kidding! Loved it! Met new friends... Saw an old one... (Timmy! Remember to go!) And danced the 2 hours away... Hahaha.... Some people were drunk.... Others were "tipsy"... And others were just happy... haha... labo.... Anyway... Loved seeing aj people again! Let's do this some other time!!!

Then I went to Sasha's party!!!! Love you girl! Hahaha... Sorry if I just dropped by for an hour!!! I promise I'll make it up to you! We made smores O_o... hahaha... I was in a dress... They were all in pajamas... Hot cocoa!!!! Rina dear.... give me back my photo... Hahaha... kidding...

So there.

Congrats to Jonah!!!! Who made it into AJ 42!!!!!

Then did the pe project, the parish involvement shennanigans, my homeworks and quizzes and collated the SARP thing...

I was done. And I saw it was good. (Holler if you get this line)

And as a result of all the stress

My knee swelled again. My face broke out. (f*** man!) And I've got colds now.

But so far... I don't look like Frankenstein yet... SOOOO it's all good.

As Jed said......There you go!

CIAO!